#376070 - We would spent the night together at either mine or his house where we always shared a single bed and although we never had full sex there was a lot of sexual touching and feeling, I was in love with Gary and was sure he felt the same about me. I changed my mind, fuck it I would run away to London, I had read about it in the papers and saw it on TV often enough, people just disappear in London, I would run away and become a rent boy, I had read about other guys doing that, London was massive, lots of guys from Scotland had gone there and just started a new life, I would sell my body to old perverts until I had enough cash to get a flat, then I would get a job find a girl to settle down with and start my life all over again, that way I did not have to kill myself, I could just start a new life where no one knew me, I would never have to face my family or friends in disgrace, so thats what I decided I would do, I headed back into town to Buchanan Street bus station, the bus for London